IN LOVING MEMORY: Jamie Hubley 15 yr. old commits suicide

Jamie Hubley 15 committed suicide. This is tragic. Another one and what are the parents and schools doing about this? If there is no supportive structure around these young people this is the end result. Being a teenager is hard enough to deal with than having no support system. If I could I would be each and everyone of their support systems since no other adult seems to be capable of doing it.

Jamie Hubley, a gay 15 year old from Ottawa, Canada, committed suicide on Friday.

The 10th grade student documented his life, including his depression and the hardships of being a gay teen, in a blog, reports the Ottawa Citizen.

The blog, called “You Can’t Break… When You’re Already Broken” featured posts with numerous references to and photos of self harm and cutting, pictures of guys kissing and mentions of wanting a boyfriend, and bleak, ominous messages like “Sometimes I wish the breeze would just take me with it,” “The only thing worse than being hated is being ignored. At least when they hate you they treat you like you exist,” and “Suicides is always an option.”

 Well…My name is Jamie, I live in Canada (Cold and I ride mutherfucking polar bears) I’m not really anything special, just depressed, I wish I could be happy, I try, I try, I try…I just want to feel special to someone. Im gay?! 😀 …I Fall way to hard when It comes to love +_+

Other posts revealed how difficult school was for Hubley:

“I hate being the only open gay guy in my school… It f***ing sucks, I really want to end it. Like all of it, I not getting better theres 3 more years of highschool left, Iv been on 4 different anti -depressants, none of them worked. I’v been depressed since january, How f***ing long is this going to last. People said “It gets better”. Its f***ing bull****. I go to see psychologist, What the f*** are they suppost to f***ing do? All I do is talk about problems, it doesnt make them dissapear?? I give up.”

His last post, which he wrote on Friday, paints a heartbreaking portrait of a boy looking for — and ultimately unable to find — acceptance:

Im a casualty of love.Well, Im tired of life really. Its so hard, Im sorry, I cant take it anymore.

First Id like to mention my friends Nancy, Abby, Colleen, jemma, and Kasia

Being sad is sad : /. I’v been like this for way to long. I cant stand school, I cant stand earth, I cant stand society, I cant stand the scars on my arms, I cant f***ing stand any f***ing thing.

I dont want my parents to think this is their fault either… I love my mom and dad : ) Its just too hard. I dont want to wait 3 more years, this hurts too much. How do you even know It will get better? Its not.

I hit rock f***ing bottom, fell through a crack, now im stuck.

My favorite singers were lady gaga , Adele , Katy perry, and Jessie james, Christina aguilara and most of all I think KASIA!!! I LOVED Singing, and she helped me a lot : ) Im not that good at it though :”/, Im going to miss you guys
(well You know who you are, But to the people who didnt like me (many) A big f*** you, Go ride a unicorn. But w/e I love you anyway.)

Remember me as a Unicorn :3 x) MAybe in my next life Il be a flying squirreel 😀

Il fly away.


I’m sorry Jamie found this to be the only way out.  You hear about little organizations like “It Gets Better” or superstars making bullying announcements, but its not enough.  I’ve said before that the “It Gets Better” campaign is merely a vanity organization to associate those that want us to believe they’re actually doing something.  It’s simply for notoriety.  I’ve stated also in the past that the “It Gets Better” campaign does not reach these kids and Jamie making that statement before he took his life only proves this point.  Its not reaching the parents, schools and lack of stable supporting social structures.  Religious groups are certainly one of the worst offenders I’m sorry to say.  So are certain presidential candidates who blatantly sweep the topic away like Michele Bachmann who said, “Passing a bill that prevents bullying isn’t worth the time.” as well as, “I think for all of us, our experience in public schools is there have always been bullies.  Always have been, always will be. I just don’t know how we’re ever going to get to the point of zero tolerance… What does it mean? … Will we be expecting boys to be girls?”

She creates a threatening environment for at-risk youth and clearly isn’t concerned about the kids.  As a public speaker she has an obligation to unite everyone with her voice.

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